Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Homeschooling - 23.5 Weeks In

   In the last week, ZoKo started her new Science Textbook, "Understanding God's World" (ABeka, grade 4). She finished reading "Stories Mother Nature Told Her Children" (Jane Andrews) and "Face To Face Wolves" (Scholastic) for Science Reading. She Finished her grammar textbook, "Language 3" (ABeka grade 3), but has not yet started "God's Gift Of Language A" (ABeka grade 4). She also completed the Twilight Saga by finishing "The Short Second Life Of Bree Tanner" (Stephenie Meyer). She has yet to pick out a new Independent Reading Series to take its place. She had a slow week, between illness and runs to doctor's appointments both locally and in Columbia for her brother.

     Grade 2, progress report 17...

          - Total Hours completed as of December 10th, 2011 -
     Science     94.25
     Math     87.75
     History & Social Studies     81.00
     Language Arts & Reading     405.25
     Daily Review     1.50
     Health & Physical Education     117.50
     Art     47.50
     Home Economics     5.00
     Foreign Language (Latin)     22.25

          - Total Hours     862.00     out of     1,000 mandatory hours -
     Hours Left:     138.00     averaging     5.00/week  -or-  0.75/day

Curriculum used this week (percentage of current status towards completion):
     Science:
          Textbook - Understanding God's World (Abeka gr 4)     lesson 3 of 158     (01.9%)
          Reading - Stories Mother Nature Told Her Children (Jane Andrews)     section 19 of 19     (100%)
          Reading - Face To Face Wolves (Scholastic)     section 2 of 2     (100%)
     Math:
          Textbook - Arithmetic 4 (Abeka gr 4)     lesson 5 of 170     (02.9%)
          Reading - Children's Puzzle Book     page 44 of 85     (51.8%)
     History:
          Textbook - History Of Our United States (Abeka gr 4)     lesson 53 of 73     (72.6%)
          Reading - Little Duke (Charlotte Mary Yonge)     chapter 6 of 13     (46.2%)
     Language Arts:
          Grammar - Language 3 (Abeka gr 3)     lesson 163 of 163     (100%)
          Comprehension - Frontiers To Explore (Abeka gr 4)     lesson 8 of 43     (18.6%)
          Penmanship - Cursive 3 (Abeka gr 3)     lesson 164 of 175     (93.7%)
          Ind Reading - Fire World (Chris D'Lacey)     chapter 30 of 60     (50.0%)
          Ind Reading - Breaking Dawn (Stephenie Meyer)     page 754 of 754     (100%)
          Ind Reading - Short Second Life Of Bree Tanner (Stephenie Meyer)     page 178 of 178 (100%)
          Classic Lit - Outdoor Girls On Pine Island (Laura Lee Hope)     chapter 6 of 25     (24.0%)
          Classic Lit - Emerald City Of Oz (Lyman Frank Baum)     chapter 12 of 30     (40.0%)
     Health:
          Textbook - Your Health (Harcourt gr 3)     lesson 53 of 85     (62.4%)
          Reading - Book Of Virtues (William J Bennett)     lesson 34 of 100     (34.0%)
     Foreign Language:
          Latin - Minimus (Cambridge)     lesson 34 of 81     (42.0%)

Completed Curriculum For The 2011-2012 School Year (2nd Grade):
     Science:
          Textbook - Discovery Works (Houghton Mifflin gr 3)
          Reading - First Book Of Bees (Albert Tibbets)
          Reading - Polar Bears (Susan Canizares)
          Reading - Rain Forest (Jinny Johnson)
          Reading - True Story Of Corky The Blind Seal (Georgeanne Irvine)
          Reading - To Be A Chimpanzee (Chris Martin)
          Reading - Horses (Harold Roth)
          Reading - Rattlesnakes (ZooBooks)
          Reading - Otter On His Own (Doe Boyle)
          Reading - Day Of The Dinosaur (Stan Berenstain)
          Reading - Kittens And Cats (Intercontinental Books)
          Reading - Creature Questions (Chris Kratt)
          Reading - Bravest Dog Ever (Natalie Standiford)
          Reading - Wild Cats (Diane Muldrow)
          Reading - Where Do Birds Live (Betsey Chessen)
          Reading - Look To The North (Jean Craighead George)
          Reading - Big Dinosaurs (Michael Berenstain)
          Reading - All Kinds Of Animals (Merrigold Press)
          Reading - Ancient Forest (Guy J Spencer)
          Reading - Animals (A+)
          Reading - Penguins And Other Polar Animals (Dalmatian Press)
          Reading - Discovering Australian Wildlife (Steve Parish)
          Reading - First Book Of Bugs (Margaret Williamson)
          Reading - My First Book About Space (Dinah L Moche)
          Reading - True Book Of Insects (Illa Podendorf)
          Reading - Tunnel Builders (James E Kelly)
          Reading - Little Puppy (Judy Dunn)
          Reading - Little Lamb (Judy Dunn)
          Reading - KoKo's Kitten (Francine Patterson)
          Reading - Urban Animals (Barbara Taylor)
          Reading - Stories Mother Nature Told Her Children (Jane Andrews)
          Reading - Face To Face Wolves (Scholastic)
     Math:
          Textbook - Arithmetic 3 (Abeka gr 3)
          Reading - Brain Games For Kids (Publications International)
     History:
          Textbook - Spectrum Geography Grade 3 (McGraw Hill gr 3)
          Reading - Stories Of American Life And Adventure (Edward Eggleston)
          Reading - First Dog (Jan Brett)
          Reading - Orient (Tom McMahon)
          Reading - Story Of Jumping Mouse (John Steptoe)
          Reading - U S Mail (Elaine A Kule)
          Reading - Why The Sun And The Moon Live In The Sky (Elphinstone Dayrell)
          Reading - Finding The Titanic (Robert D Ballard)
          Reading - Stories From Old Russia (Edward W Dolch)
          Reading - Meet The Pilgrim Fathers (Elizabeth Payne)
          Reading - Dancing Teepees (Virginia Driving Hawk Sneve)
          Reading - Abiyoyo (Pete Seeger)
          Reading - If You'd Been Born In India (Gail Ranadive)
          Reading - Russia (Chantal Deltenre)
          Reading - Abby Takes A Stand (Patricia C McKissack)
     Language Arts:
          Grammar - Language 3 (Abeka gr 3)
          Comprehension - Silly Things Happen (Houghton Mifflin gr 3)
          Comprehension - Foot Prints (Abeka gr 3)
          Comprehension - Worlds Of Wonder (Abeka gr 3)
          Independent Reading - Last Dragon Chronicles:
               Fire Star (Chris D'Lacey)
               Fire Eternal (Chris D'Lacey)
               Dark Fire (Chris D'Lacey)
          Independent Reading - Twilight Saga:
               New Moon (Stephenie Meyer)
               Eclipse (Stephenie Meyer)
               Breaking Dawn (Stephenie Meyer)
               Short Second Life Of Bree Tanner (Stephenie Meyer)
          Classic Literature - Outdoor Girls series:
               Outdoor Girls Of Deepdale (Laura Lee Hope)
               Outdoor Girls In A Motor Car (Laura Lee Hope)
               Outdoor Girls In A Winter Camp (Laura Lee Hope)
               Outdoor Girls In Florida (Laura Lee Hope)
               Outdoor Girls At Ocean View (Laura Lee Hope)
          Classic Literature - Oz series:
               Wizard Of Oz (Lyman Frank Baum)
               Land Of Oz (Lyman Frank Baum)
               Ozma Of Oz (Laura Lee Hope)
               Dorothy And The Wizard In Oz (Lyman Frank Baum)
               Road To Oz (Lyman Frank Baum)
          Classic Literature - Black Beauty - Young Folks' Edition (Anna Sewell)
          Classic Literature - Flower Fables (Louisa May Alcott)
          Classic Literature - Tale Of Jemima Puddle Duck (Beatrix Potter)
          Free Reading - Glory Of Unicorns (Bruce Coville)
          Free Reading - Wishbone - Unleashed In Space (Alexander Steele)
          Free Reading - Wishbone - Salty Dog (Brad Strickland)
     Health:
          Textbook - Health, Safety, & Manners 3 (Abeka gr 3)
          Reading - It's Not The Stork (Robie H Harris)
     Foreign Language:

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Homeschooling - 22.5 Weeks In

   Been a while (three weeks) since I posted a ZoKo update. I'm not goig to bother to try to catch people up on her progress over that time period. She finished lots of books and started new ones. Even more new ones will be on the next update. If you're really curious, you can always compare this update with the last one to see the progress. Beyond that, here it is, Grade 2, progress report 16...

          - Total Hours completed as of December 3rd, 2011 -
     Science     91.50
     Math     86.50
     History & Social Studies     78.50
     Language Arts & Reading     392.25
     Daily Review     1.50
     Health & Physical Education     114.00
     Art     45.00
     Home Economics     5.00
     Foreign Language (Latin)     21.50

          - Total Hours     835.75     out of     1,000 mandatory hours -
     Hours Left:     164.25     averaging     5.50/week  -or-  1.00/day

Curriculum used this week (percentage of current status towards completion):
     Science:
          Textbook - Discovery Works (Houghton Mifflin gr 3)     lesson 129 of 129     (100.0%)
          Reading - Stories Mother Nature Told Her Children (Jane Andrews)     section 18 of 19     (94.7%)
     Math:
          Textbook - Arithmetic 4 (Abeka gr 4)     lesson 4 of 170     (02.4%)
          Reading - Children's Puzzle Book     page 44 of 85     (51.8%)
     History:
          Textbook - History Of Our United States (Abeka gr 4)     lesson 49 of 73     (67.1%)
          Reading - Abby Takes A Stand (Patricia C McKissack)     chapter 15 of 15     (100%)
          Reading - Little Suke (Charlotte Mary Yonge)     chapter 3 of 13     (23.1%)
     Language Arts:
          Grammar - Language 3 (Abeka gr 3)     lesson 160 of 163     (98.2%)
          Comprehension - Frontiers To Explore (Abeka gr 4)     lesson 5 of 43     (11.6%)
          Penmanship - Cursive 3 (Abeka gr 3)     lesson 160 of 175     (91.4%)
          Ind Reading - Fire World (Chris D'Lacey)     chapter 24 of 60     (40.0%)
          Ind Reading - Breaking Dawn (Stephenie Meyer)     page 754 of 754     (100%)
          Ind Reading - Short Second Life Of Bree Tanner (Stephenie Meyer)     page 126 of 178 (70.8%)
          Classic Lit - Outdoor Girls At Ocean View (Laura Lee Hope)     chapter 25 of 25     (100%)
          Classic Lit - Outdoor Girls On Pine Island (Laura Lee Hope)     chapter 4 of 25     (16.0%)
          Classic Lit - Road To Oz (Lyman Frank Baum)     chapter 24 of 24     (100%)
          Classic Lit - Emerald City Of Oz (Lyman Frank Baum)     chapter 4 of 30     (13.3%)
     Health:
          Textbook - Your Health (Harcourt gr 3)     lesson 48 of 85     (56.5%)
          Reading - Book Of Virtues (William J Bennett)     lesson 30 of 100     (30.0%)
     Foreign Language:
          Latin - Minimus (Cambridge)     lesson 33 of 81     (40.7%)

Completed Curriculum For The 2011-2012 School Year (2nd Grade):
     Science:
          Reading - First Book Of Bees (Albert Tibbets)
          Reading - Polar Bears (Susan Canizares)
          Reading - Rain Forest (Jinny Johnson)
          Reading - True Story Of Corky The Blind Seal (Georgeanne Irvine)
          Reading - To Be A Chimpanzee (Chris Martin)
          Reading - Horses (Harold Roth)
          Reading - Rattlesnakes (ZooBooks)
          Reading - Otter On His Own (Doe Boyle)
          Reading - Day Of The Dinosaur (Stan Berenstain)
          Reading - Kittens And Cats (Intercontinental Books)
          Reading - Creature Questions (Chris Kratt)
          Reading - Bravest Dog Ever (Natalie Standiford)
          Reading - Wild Cats (Diane Muldrow)
          Reading - Where Do Birds Live (Betsey Chessen)
          Reading - Look To The North (Jean Craighead George)
          Reading - Big Dinosaurs (Michael Berenstain)
          Reading - All Kinds Of Animals (Merrigold Press)
          Reading - Ancient Forest (Guy J Spencer)
          Reading - Animals (A+)
          Reading - Penguins And Other Polar Animals (Dalmatian Press)
          Reading - Discovering Australian Wildlife (Steve Parish)
          Reading - First Book Of Bugs (Margaret Williamson)
          Reading - My First Book About Space (Dinah L Moche)
          Reading - True Book Of Insects (Illa Podendorf)
          Reading - Tunnel Builders (James E Kelly)
          Reading - Little Puppy (Judy Dunn)
          Reading - Little Lamb (Judy Dunn)
          Reading - KoKo's Kitten (Francine Patterson)
          Reading - Urban Animals (Barbara Taylor)
     Math:
          Textbook - Arithmetic 3 (Abeka gr 3)
          Reading - Brain Games For Kids (Publications International)
     History:
          Textbook - Spectrum Geography Grade 3 (McGraw Hill gr 3)
          Reading - Stories Of American Life And Adventure (Edward Eggleston)
          Reading - First Dog (Jan Brett)
          Reading - Orient (Tom McMahon)
          Reading - Story Of Jumping Mouse (John Steptoe)
          Reading - U S Mail (Elaine A Kule)
          Reading - Why The Sun And The Moon Live In The Sky (Elphinstone Dayrell)
          Reading - Finding The Titanic (Robert D Ballard)
          Reading - Stories From Old Russia (Edward W Dolch)
          Reading - Meet The Pilgrim Fathers (Elizabeth Payne)
          Reading - Dancing Teepees (Virginia Driving Hawk Sneve)
          Reading - Abiyoyo (Pete Seeger)
          Reading - If You'd Been Born In India (Gail Ranadive)
          Reading - Russia (Chantal Deltenre)
          Reading - Abby Takes A Stand (Patricia C McKissack)
     Language Arts:
          Comprehension - Silly Things Happen (Houghton Mifflin gr 3)
          Comprehension - Foot Prints (Abeka gr 3)
          Comprehension - Worlds Of Wonder (Abeka gr 3)
          Independent Reading - Fire Star (Chris D'Lacey)
          Independent Reading - New Moon (Stephenie Meyer)
          Independent Reading - Fire Eternal (Chris D'Lacey)
          Independent Reading - Eclipse (Stephenie Meyer)
          Independent Reading - Dark Fire (Chris D'Lacey)
          Independent Reading - Breaking Dawn (Stephenie Meyer)
          Classic Literature - Outdoor Girls Of Deepdale (Laura Lee Hope)
          Classic Literature - Outdoor Girls In A Motor Car (Laura Lee Hope)
          Classic Literature - Outdoor Girls In A Winter Camp (Laura Lee Hope)
          Classic Literature - Wizard Of Oz (Lyman Frank Baum)
          Classic Literature - Land Of Oz (Lyman Frank Baum)
          Classic Literature - Outdoor Girls In Florida (Laura Lee Hope)
          Classic Literature - Black Beauty - Young Folks' Edition (Anna Sewell)
          Classic Literature - Ozma Of Oz (Laura Lee Hope)
          Classic Literature - Outdoor Girls At Ocean View (Laura Lee Hope)
          Classic Literature - Dorothy And The Wizard In Oz (Lyman Frank Baum)
          Classic Literature - Flower Fables (Louisa May Alcott)
          Classic Literature - Road To Oz (Lyman Frank Baum)
          Classic Literature - Tale Of Jemima Puddle Duck (Beatrix Potter)
          Free Reading - Glory Of Unicorns (Bruce Coville)
          Free Reading - Wishbone - Unleashed In Space (Alexander Steele)
          Free Reading - Wishbone - Salty Dog (Brad Strickland)
     Health:
          Textbook - Health, Safety, & Manners 3 (Abeka gr 3)
          Reading - It's Not The Stork (Robie H Harris)
     Foreign Language:

Monday, November 14, 2011

Homeschooling - 19.5 Weeks In

   Trying to get back on schedule. Not quite as easy as I'd hoped it would be. At any rate, I am at least posting this update on time for a change. Yay me!... ZoKo had a slow week last week. Lots of hours, but not so much textbook time. Mostly reading, tv, and other activities. Oh well, it still counts. Meanwhile, I'm not sure how her overall list of curriculum for this year is gonna pan out. Probably not as thorough as I would like to have it, but still better than it could be. So goes life. I'm planning on trying to keep her running through winter break, spring break, and summer if at all possible this year...
   She had a semi-meltdown today (yes, I know, this is supposed to be last week's info only) about the amount of work time versus play time. Of course, what she really means is the amount of textbook time versus reading, art, and p.e. time. Go figure. Anyway, we worked out the math together and she finally realized that if she puts the energy from whining into her work instead, she'll have about 4 hours of "work" in (4 days a week), and all the rest of her "school" time is doing the fun stuff she loves. Maybe that'll help out since she's already investing that much time in complaining lately instead... While I'm already breaking the rules and discussing this week instead of "last" week, I've got one more spoiler alert: She finished Dark Fire, book 5 of the Last Dragon Chronicles by Chris D'Lacey yesterday, and started book 6, Fire World today. :) Unfortunately, it's also the last book in the series, so don't tell her that (shhhh!)...
   Back to last week, now that I'm done blabbing about this week... Grade 2, progress report 15...

          - Total Hours completed as of November 12th, 2011 -
     Science     82.25
     Math     72.25
     History & Social Studies     64.75
     Language Arts & Reading     320.25
     Daily Review   1.50
     Health & Physical Education     106.50
     Art     40.25
     Home Economics     5.00
     Foreign Language (Latin)     16.50

          - Total Hours     709.25     out of     1,000 mandatory hours -
     Hours Left:     290.75     averaging     9.00/week  -or-  1.50/day

Curriculum used this week (percentage of current status towards completion):
     Science:
          Textbook - Discovery Works (Houghton Mifflin gr 3)     lesson 120 of 129     (93.0%)
          Reading - Stories Mother Nature Told Her Children (Jane Andrews)     section 6 of 19     (31.6%)
     Math:
          Textbook - Arithmetic 3 (Abeka gr 3)     lesson 163 of 170     (95.9%)
          Reading - Brain Games For Kids (Publications International)     page 169 of 176     (96.0%)
     History:
          Textbook - History Of Our United States (Abeka gr 4)     lesson 44 of 73     (60.3%)
          Reading - Russia (Chantal Deltenre)     section 5 of 7     (71.4%)
     Language Arts:
          Grammar - Language 3 (Abeka gr 3)     lesson 152 of 163     (93.3%)
          Comprehension - Worlds Of Wonder (Abeka gr 3)     lesson 39 of 46     (84.8%)
          Penmanship - Cursive 3 (Abeka gr 3)     lesson 154 of 175     (88.0%)
          Ind Reading - Dark Fire (Chris D'Lacey)     chapter 51 of 52     (98.1%)
          Ind Reading - Breaking Dawn (Stephenie Meyer)     page 324 of 754     (43.0%)
          Classic Lit - Outdoor Girls At Ocean View (Laura Lee Hope)     chapter 14 of 25     (56.0%)
          Classic Lit - Dorothy And The Wizard In Oz (Lyman Frank Baum)     chapter 17 of 20     (85.0%)
          Classic Lit - Flower Fables (Louisa May Alcott)     chapter 3 of 10     (30.0%)
     Health:
          Textbook - Your Health (Harcourt gr 3)     lesson 42 of 85     (49.4%)
          Reading - Book Of Virtues (William J Bennett)     lesson 20 of 100     (20.0%)
     Foreign Language:
          Latin - Minimus (Cambridge)     lesson 24 of 81     (29.6%)

Completed Curriculum For The 2011-2012 School Year (2nd Grade):
     Science:
          Reading - First Book Of Bees (Albert Tibbets)
          Reading - Polar Bears (Susan Canizares)
          Reading - Rain Forest (Jinny Johnson)
          Reading - True Story Of Corky The Blind Seal (Georgeanne Irvine)
          Reading - To Be A Chimpanzee (Chris Martin)
          Reading - Horses (Harold Roth)
          Reading - Rattlesnakes (ZooBooks)
          Reading - Otter On His Own (Doe Boyle)
          Reading - Day Of The Dinosaur (Stan Berenstain)
          Reading - Kittens And Cats (Intercontinental Books)
          Reading - Creature Questions (Chris Kratt)
          Reading - Bravest Dog Ever (Natalie Standiford)
          Reading - Wild Cats (Diane Muldrow)
          Reading - Where Do Birds Live (Betsey Chessen)
          Reading - Look To The North (Jean Craighead George)
          Reading - Big Dinosaurs (Michael Berenstain)
          Reading - All Kinds Of Animals (Merrigold Press)
          Reading - Ancient Forest (Guy J Spencer)
          Reading - Animals (A+)
          Reading - Penguins And Other Polar Animals (Dalmatian Press)
          Reading - Discovering Australian Wildlife (Steve Parish)
          Reading - First Book Of Bugs (Margaret Williamson)
          Reading - My First Book About Space (Dinah L Moche)
          Reading - True Book Of Insects (Illa Podendorf)
          Reading - Tunnel Builders (James E Kelly)
          Reading - Little Puppy (Judy Dunn)
          Reading - Little Lamb (Judy Dunn)
          Reading - KoKo's Kitten (Francine Patterson)
          Reading - Urban Animals (Barbara Taylor)
     Math:
     History:
          Textbook - Spectrum Geography Grade 3 (McGraw Hill gr 3)
          Reading - Stories Of American Life And Adventure (Edward Eggleston)
          Reading - First Dog (Jan Brett)
          Reading - Orient (Tom McMahon)
          Reading - Story Of Jumping Mouse (John Steptoe)
          Reading - U S Mail (Elaine A Kule)
          Reading - Why The Sun And The Moon Live In The Sky (Elphinstone Dayrell)
          Reading - Finding The Titanic (Robert D Ballard)
          Reading - Stories From Old Russia (Edward W Dolch)
          Reading - Meet The Pilgrim Fathers (Elizabeth Payne)
          Reading - Dancing Teepees (Virginia Driving Hawk Sneve)
          Reading - Abiyoyo (Pete Seeger)
          Reading - If You'd Been Born In India (Gail Ranadive)
     Language Arts:
          Comprehension - Silly Things Happen (Houghton Mifflin gr 3)
          Comprehension - Foot Prints (Abeka gr 3)
          Independent Reading - Fire Star (Chris D'Lacey)
          Independent Reading - New Moon (Stephenie Meyer)
          Independent Reading - Fire Eternal (Chris D'Lacey)
          Independent Reading - Eclipse (Stephenie Meyer)
          Classic Literature - Outdoor Girls Of Deepdale (Laura Lee Hope)
          Classic Literature - Outdoor Girls In A Motor Car (Laura Lee Hope)
          Classic Literature - Outdoor Girls In A Winter Camp (Laura Lee Hope)
          Classic Literature - Wizard Of Oz (Lyman Frank Baum)
          Classic Literature - Land Of Oz (Lyman Frank Baum)
          Classic Literature - Outdoor Girls In Florida (Laura Lee Hope)
          Classic Literature - Black Beauty - Young Folks' Edition (Anna Sewell)
          Classic Literature - Ozma Of Oz (Laura Lee Hope)
          Free Reading - Glory Of Unicorns (Bruce Coville)
          Free Reading - Wishbone - Unleashed In Space (Alexander Steele)
          Free Reading - Wishbone - Salty Dog (Brad Strickland)
     Health:
          Reading - It's Not The Stork (Robie H Harris)
     Foreign Language:

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Homeschooling - 18.5 Weeks In


   Yeah, I know, it's been a while. A long while... I've been very busy dealing with some family issues and trying to maintain through some very stressful situations. So, while ZoKo has still been roughly on target for her schooling, I have way behind on posting online. Because, well, life's just gotten in the way lately. So consider this a catch up for the last however many weeks (four, I think) worth of hours, reading, and general curriculum... Grade 2, progress report 14...

          - Total Hours completed as of November 5th, 2011 -
     Science     76.00
     Math     69.50
     History & Social Studies     63.00
     Language Arts & Reading     297.75
     Daily Review   1.50
     Health & Physical Education     104.00
     Art     35.75
     Home Economics     5.00
     Foreign Language (Latin)     15.00

          - Total Hours     667.50     out of     1,000 mandatory hours -
     Hours Left:     332.50     averaging     10.00/week  -or-  1.50/day

Curriculum used this week (percentage of current status towards completion):
     Science:
          Textbook - Discovery Works (Houghton Mifflin gr 3)     lesson 117 of 129     (90.7%)
          Reading - Stories Mother Nature Told Her Children (Jane Andrews)     section 3 of 19     (15.8%)
     Math:
          Textbook - Arithmetic 3 (Abeka gr 3)     lesson 160 of 170     (94.1%)
          Reading - Brain Games For Kids (Publications International)     page 169 of 176     (96.0%)
     History:
          Textbook - History Of Our United States (Abeka gr 4)     lesson 40 of 73     (54.8%)
          Reading - Russia (Chantal Deltenre)     section 4 of 7     (57.1%)
     Language Arts:
          Grammar - Language 3 (Abeka gr 3)     lesson 150 of 163     (92.0%)
          Comprehension - Worlds Of Wonder (Abeka gr 3)     lesson 35 of 46     (76.1%)
          Penmanship - Cursive 3 (Abeka gr 3)     lesson 154 of 175     (88.0%)
          Ind Reading - Dark Fire (Chris D'Lacey)     chapter 38 of 52     (73.1%)
          Ind Reading - Breaking Dawn (Stephenie Meyer)     page 191 of 754     (25.3%)
          Classic Lit - Outdoor Girls At Ocean View (Laura Lee Hope)     chapter 11 of 25     (44.0%)
          Classic Lit - Ozma Of Oz (Lyman Frank Baum)     chapter 21 of 21     (100%)
          Classic Lit - Dorothy And The Wizard In Oz (Lyman Frank Baum)     chapter 7 of 20     (35.0%)
     Health:
          Textbook - Your Health (Harcourt gr 3)     lesson 41 of 85     (48.2%)
          Reading - Book Of Virtues (William J Bennett)     lesson 17 of 100     (17.0%)
     Foreign Language:
          Latin - Minimus (Cambridge)     lesson 22 of 81     (27.2%)

Completed Curriculum For The 2011-2012 School Year (2nd Grade):
     Science:
          Reading - First Book Of Bees (Albert Tibbets)
          Reading - Polar Bears (Susan Canizares)
          Reading - Rain Forest (Jinny Johnson)
          Reading - True Story Of Corky The Blind Seal (Georgeanne Irvine)
          Reading - To Be A Chimpanzee (Chris Martin)
          Reading - Horses (Harold Roth)
          Reading - Rattlesnakes (ZooBooks)
          Reading - Otter On His Own (Doe Boyle)
          Reading - Day Of The Dinosaur (Stan Berenstain)
          Reading - Kittens And Cats (Intercontinental Books)
          Reading - Creature Questions (Chris Kratt)
          Reading - Bravest Dog Ever (Natalie Standiford)
          Reading - Wild Cats (Diane Muldrow)
          Reading - Where Do Birds Live (Betsey Chessen)
          Reading - Look To The North (Jean Craighead George)
          Reading - Big Dinosaurs (Michael Berenstain)
          Reading - All Kinds Of Animals (Merrigold Press)
          Reading - Ancient Forest (Guy J Spencer)
          Reading - Animals (A+)
          Reading - Penguins And Other Polar Animals (Dalmatian Press)
          Reading - Discovering Australian Wildlife (Steve Parish)
          Reading - First Book Of Bugs (Margaret Williamson)
          Reading - My First Book About Space (Dinah L Moche)
          Reading - True Book Of Insects (Illa Podendorf)
          Reading - Tunnel Builders (James E Kelly)
          Reading - Little Puppy (Judy Dunn)
          Reading - Little Lamb (Judy Dunn)
          Reading - KoKo's Kitten (Francine Patterson)
          Reading - Urban Animals (Barbara Taylor)
     Math:
     History:
          Textbook - Spectrum Geography Grade 3 (McGraw Hill gr 3)
          Reading - Stories Of American Life And Adventure (Edward Eggleston)
          Reading - First Dog (Jan Brett)
          Reading - Orient (Tom McMahon)
          Reading - Story Of Jumping Mouse (John Steptoe)
          Reading - U S Mail (Elaine A Kule)
          Reading - Why The Sun And The Moon Live In The Sky (Elphinstone Dayrell)
          Reading - Finding The Titanic (Robert D Ballard)
          Reading - Stories From Old Russia (Edward W Dolch)
          Reading - Meet The Pilgrim Fathers (Elizabeth Payne)
          Reading - Dancing Teepees (Virginia Driving Hawk Sneve)
          Reading - Abiyoyo (Pete Seeger)
          Reading - If You'd Been Born In India (Gail Ranadive)
     Language Arts:
          Comprehension - Silly Things Happen (Houghton Mifflin gr 3)
          Comprehension - Foot Prints (Abeka gr 3)
          Independent Reading - Fire Star (Chris D'Lacey)
          Independent Reading - New Moon (Stephenie Meyer)
          Independent Reading - Fire Eternal (Chris D'Lacey)
          Independent Reading - Eclipse (Stephenie Meyer)
          Classic Literature - Outdoor Girls Of Deepdale (Laura Lee Hope)
          Classic Literature - Outdoor Girls In A Motor Car (Laura Lee Hope)
          Classic Literature - Outdoor Girls In A Winter Camp (Laura Lee Hope)
          Classic Literature - Wizard Of Oz (Lyman Frank Baum)
          Classic Literature - Land Of Oz (Lyman Frank Baum)
          Classic Literature - Outdoor Girls In Florida (Laura Lee Hope)
          Classic Literature - Black Beauty - Young Folks' Edition (Anna Sewell)
          Classic Literature - Ozma Of Oz (Laura Lee Hope)
          Free Reading - Glory Of Unicorns (Bruce Coville)
          Free Reading - Wishbone - Unleashed In Space (Alexander Steele)
          Free Reading - Wishbone - Salty Dog (Brad Strickland)
     Health:
          Reading - It's Not The Stork (Robie H Harris)
     Foreign Language:

Monday, October 10, 2011

Homeschooling - 14.5 Weeks In

   This week... ZoKo read "Little Puppy", "Little Lamb", and "KoKo's Kitten" for science reading. She also finished "Fire Eternal" and started reading "Dark Fire", the fifth book in the Last Dragon Chronicles by Chris D'Lacey. She finished "The Wizard Of Oz", and started reading "Land Of Oz" as well. She got a few hours of bike riding time in, and took a field trip on Monday to listen to Jordan Rubin, founder of "Garden Of Life" natural health products speak about nutrition... Meanwhile, here it is, grade 2, progess report 13...
          - Total Hours completed as of October 8th, 2011 -
     Science     61.75
     Math     52.25
     History & Social Studies     50.25
     Language Arts & Reading     213.75
     Daily Review   1.50
     Health & Physical Education     69.25
     Art     27.25
     Home Economics     4.50
     Foreign Language (Latin)     9.75

          - Total Hours   490.25     out of     1,000 mandatory hours -
     Hours Left:     509.75     averaging     13.50/week  -or-  2.00/day

Curriculum used this week (percentage of current status towards completion):
     Science:
          Textbook - Discovery Works (Houghton Mifflin gr 3)     lesson 103 of 129     (80.0%)
          Reading - Little Puppy (Judy Dunn)     section 1 of 1     (100%)
          Reading - Little Lamb (Judy Dunn)     section 1 of 1     (100%)
          Reading - KoKo's Kitten (Francine Patterson)     section 1 of 1     (100%)
          Reading - Urban Animals (Barbara Taylor)     page 11 of 32     (34.4%)
     Math:
          Textbook - Arithmetic 3 (Abeka gr 3)     lesson 145 of 170     (85.3%)
          Reading - Brain Games For Kids (Publications International)     page 151 of 176     (85.8%)
     History:
          Textbook - History Of Our United States (Abeka gr 4)     lesson 27 of 73     (37.0%)
          Reading - Meet The Pilgrim Fathers (Elizabeth Payne)     chapter 18 of 19     (94.7%)
     Language Arts:
          Grammar - Language 3 (Abeka gr 3)     lesson 137 of 163     (84.0%)
          Comprehension - Worlds Of Wonder (Abeka gr 3)     lesson 22 of 46     (47.8%)
          Penmanship - Cursive 3 (Abeka gr 3)     lesson 146 of 175     (83.4%)
          Ind Reading - Fire Eternal (Chris D'Lacey)     chapter 34 of 34     (100%)
          Ind Reading - Dark Fire (Chris D'Lacey)     chapter 9 of 52     (17.3%)
          Ind Reading - Eclipse (Stephenie Meyer)     page 450 of 629     (71.5%)
          Classic Lit - Outdoor Girls In Florida (Laura Lee Hope)     chapter 18 of 25     (72.0%)
          Classic Lit - Wizard Of Oz (Lyman Frank Baum)     chapter 24 of 24     (100%)
          Classic Lit - Land Of Oz (Lyman Frank Baum)     chapter 8 of 24     (33.3%)
          Classic Lit - Black Beauty Young Edition (Anna Sewell)     chapter 6 of 16     (37.5%)
     Health:
          Textbook - Your Health (Harcourt gr 3)     lesson 32 of 85     (37.6%)
          Reading - Book Of Virtues (William J Bennett)     lesson 10 of 100     (10.0%)
     Foreign Language:
          Latin - Minimus (Cambridge)     lesson 6 of 27     (22.2%)

Completed Curriculum For The 2011-2012 School Year (2nd Grade):
     Science:
          Reading - First Book Of Bees (Albert Tibbets)
          Reading - Polar Bears (Susan Canizares)
          Reading - Rain Forest (Jinny Johnson)
          Reading - True Story Of Corky The Blind Seal (Georgeanne Irvine)
          Reading - To Be A Chimpanzee (Chris Martin)
          Reading - Horses (Harold Roth)
          Reading - Rattlesnakes (ZooBooks)
          Reading - Otter On His Own (Doe Boyle)
          Reading - Day Of The Dinosaur (Stan Berenstain)
          Reading - Kittens And Cats (Intercontinental Books)
          Reading - Creature Questions (Chris Kratt)
          Reading - Bravest Dog Ever (Natalie Standiford)
          Reading - Wild Cats (Diane Muldrow)
          Reading - Where Do Birds Live (Betsey Chessen)
          Reading - Look To The North (Jean Craighead George)
          Reading - Big Dinosaurs (Michael Berenstain)
          Reading - All Kinds Of Animals (Merrigold Press)
          Reading - Ancient Forest (Guy J Spencer)
          Reading - Animals (A+)
          Reading - Penguins And Other Polar Animals (Dalmatian Press)
          Reading - Discovering Australian Wildlife (Steve Parish)
          Reading - First Book Of Bugs (Margaret Williamson)
          Reading - My First Book About Space (Dinah L Moche)
          Reading - True Book Of Insects (Illa Podendorf)
          Reading - Tunnel Builders (James E Kelly)
          Reading - Little Puppy (Judy Dunn)
          Reading - Little Lamb (Judy Dunn)
          Reading - KoKo's Kitten (Francine Patterson)
     Math:
     History:
          Textbook - Spectrum Geography Grade 3 (McGraw Hill gr 3)
          Reading - Stories Of American Life And Adventure (Edward Eggleston)
          Reading - First Dog (Jan Brett)
          Reading - Orient (Tom McMahon)
          Reading - Story Of Jumping Mouse (John Steptoe)
          Reading - U S Mail (Elaine A Kule)
          Reading - Why The Sun And The Moon Live In The Sky (Elphinstone Dayrell)
          Reading - Finding The Titanic (Robert D Ballard)
          Reading - Stories From Old Russia (Edward W Dolch)
     Language Arts:
          Comprehension - Silly Things Happen (Houghton Mifflin gr 3)
          Comprehension - Foot Prints (Abeka gr 3)
          Independent Reading - Fire Star (Chris D'Lacey)
          Independent Reading - New Moon (Stephenie Meyer)
          Independent Reading - Fire Eternal (Chris D'Lacey)
          Classic Literature - Outdoor Girls Of Deepdale (Laura Lee Hope)
          Classic Literature - Outdoor Girls In A Motor Car (Laura Lee Hope)
          Classic Literature - Outdoor Girls In A Winter Camp (Laura Lee Hope)
          Classic Literature - Wizard Of Oz (Lyman Frank Baum)
          Free Reading - Glory Of Unicorns (Bruce Coville)
          Free Reading - Wishbone Unleashed In Space (Alexander Steele)
     Health:
          Reading - It's Not The Stork (Robie H Harris)
     Foreign Language:

Monday, October 3, 2011

Homeschooling - 13.5 Weeks In

   This week... ZoKo finished reading "My First Book About Space", "True Book Of Insects", and "Tunnel Builders" for science reading. She also decided to continue "The Book Of Virtues", which had been sitting abandoned on her shelf for some time now... Meanwhile, here it is, grade 2, progess report 12...
          - Total Hours completed as of October 1st, 2011 -
     Science     58.50
     Math     48.50
     History & Social Studies     48.75
     Language Arts & Reading     191.50
     Daily Review   1.50
     Health & Physical Education     62.25
     Art     26.00
     Home Economics     4.50
     Foreign Language (Latin)     8.00

          - Total Hours   449.50     out of     1,000 mandatory hours -
     Hours Left:     550.50     averaging     14.25/week  -or-  2.25/day

Curriculum used this week (percentage of current status towards completion):
     Science:
          Textbook - Discovery Works (Houghton Mifflin gr 3)     lesson 102 of 129     (79.1%)
          Reading - My First Book About Space (Dinah L Moche)     section 6 of 6     (100%)
          Reading - True Book Of Insects (Illa Podendorf)     section 3 of 3     (100%)
          Reading - Tunnel Builders (James E Kelly)     section 3 of 3     (100%)
     Math:
          Textbook - Arithmetic 3 (Abeka gr 3)     lesson 144 of 170     (84.7%)
          Reading - Brain Games For Kids (Publications International)     page 136 of 176     (77.3%)
     History:
          Textbook - History Of Our United States (Abeka gr 4)     lesson 26 of 73     (35.6%)
          Reading - Meet The Pilgrim Fathers (Elizabeth Payne)     chapter 12 of 19     (63.2%)
     Language Arts:
          Grammar - Language 3 (Abeka gr 3)     lesson 136 of 163     (83.4%)
          Comprehension - Worlds Of Wonder (Abeka gr 3)     lesson 19 of 46     (41.3%)
          Penmanship - Cursive 3 (Abeka gr 3)     lesson 143 of 175     (81.7%)
          Ind Reading - Fire Eternal (Chris D'Lacey)     chapter 33 of 34     (97.1%)
          Ind Reading - Eclipse (Stephenie Meyer)     page 368 of 629     (58.5%)
          Classic Lit - Outdoor Girls In Florida (Laura Lee Hope)     chapter 11 of 25     (44.0%)
          Classic Lit - Wizard Of Oz (Lyman Frank Baum)     chapter 20 of 24     (83.3%)
     Health:
          Textbook - Your Health (Harcourt gr 3)     lesson 30 of 85     (35.3%)
          Reading - Book Of Virtues (William J Bennett)     lesson 8 of 100     (8.0%)
     Foreign Language:
          Latin - Minimus (Cambridge)     lesson 5 of 27     (18.5%)

Completed Curriculum For The 2011-2012 School Year (2nd Grade):
     Science:
          Reading - First Book Of Bees (Albert Tibbets)
          Reading - Polar Bears (Susan Canizares)
          Reading - Rain Forest (Jinny Johnson)
          Reading - True Story Of Corky The Blind Seal (Georgeanne Irvine)
          Reading - To Be A Chimpanzee (Chris Martin)
          Reading - Horses (Harold Roth)
          Reading - Rattlesnakes (ZooBooks)
          Reading - Otter On His Own (Doe Boyle)
          Reading - Day Of The Dinosaur (Stan Berenstain)
          Reading - Kittens And Cats (Intercontinental Books)
          Reading - Creature Questions (Chris Kratt)
          Reading - Bravest Dog Ever (Natalie Standiford)
          Reading - Wild Cats (Diane Muldrow)
          Reading - Where Do Birds Live (Betsey Chessen)
          Reading - Look To The North (Jean Craighead George)
          Reading - Big Dinosaurs (Michael Berenstain)
          Reading - All Kinds Of Animals (Merrigold Press)
          Reading - Ancient Forest (Guy J Spencer)
          Reading - Animals (A+)
          Reading - Penguins And Other Polar Animals (Dalmatian Press)
          Reading - Discovering Australian Wildlife (Steve Parish)
          Reading - First Book Of Bugs (Margaret Williamson)
          Reading - My First Book About Space (Dinah L Moche)
          Reading - True Book Of Insects (Illa Podendorf)
          Reading - Tunnel Builders (James E Kelly)
     Math:
     History:
          Textbook - Spectrum Geography Grade 3 (McGraw Hill gr 3)
          Reading - Stories Of American Life And Adventure (Edward Eggleston)
          Reading - First Dog (Jan Brett)
          Reading - Orient (Tom McMahon)
          Reading - Story Of Jumping Mouse (John Steptoe)
          Reading - U S Mail (Elaine A Kule)
          Reading - Why The Sun And The Moon Live In The Sky (Elphinstone Dayrell)
          Reading - Finding The Titanic (Robert D Ballard)
          Reading - Stories From Old Russia (Edward W Dolch)
     Language Arts:
          Comprehension - Silly Things Happen (Houghton Mifflin gr 3)
          Comprehension - Foot Prints (Abeka gr 3)
          Independent Reading - Fire Star (Chris D'Lacey)
          Independent Reading - New Moon (Stephenie Meyer)
          Classic Literature - Outdoor Girls Of Deepdale (Laura Lee Hope)
          Classic Literature - Outdoor Girls In A Motor Car (Laura Lee Hope)
          Classic Literature - Outdoor Girls In A Winter Camp (Laura Lee Hope)
          Free Reading - Glory Of Unicorns (Bruce Coville)
          Free Reading - Wishbone Unleashed In Space (Alexander Steele)
     Health:
          Reading - It's Not The Stork (Robie H Harris)
     Foreign Language:

Monday, September 26, 2011

Homeschooling - 12.5 Weeks In

   This week... ZoKo finished reading "First Book Of Bugs", and started "My First Book About Space" for science reading. She also finished reading "Stories From Old Russia", and started "Meet The Pilgrim Fathers" for history reading. She also started playing an online game, Kabongo, for Language Arts. It's below her level, but we're hoping it encourages the other kids to want to play it if they get to see her on Daddy's computer... Meanwhile, here it is, grade 2, progess report 11...

          - Total Hours completed as of September 24th, 2011 -
     Science     53.50
     Math     44.25
     History & Social Studies     45.00
     Language Arts & Reading     174.00
     Daily Review   1.50
     Health & Physical Education     56.00
     Art     24.25
     Home Economics     4.50
     Foreign Language (Latin)     6.00

          - Total Hours   409.00     out of     1,000 mandatory hours -
     Hours Left:     591.00     averaging     15.00/week  -or-  2.25/day

Curriculum used this week (percentage of current status towards completion):
     Science:
          Textbook - Discovery Works (Houghton Mifflin gr 3)     lesson 98 of 129     (76.0%)
          Reading - First Book Of Bugs (Margaret Williamson)     lesson 9 of 9     (100%)
          Reading - My First Book About Space (Dinah L Moche)     section 5 of 6     (83.3%)
     Math:
          Textbook - Arithmetic 3 (Abeka gr 3)     lesson 140 of 170     (82.4%)
          Reading - Brain Games For Kids (Publications International)     page 128 of 176     (72.7%)
     History:
          Textbook - History Of Our United States (Abeka gr 4)     lesson 21 of 73     (28.8%)
          Reading - Stories From Old Russia (Edward W Dolch)     chapter 21 of 21     (100%)
          Reading - Meet The Pilgrim Fathers (Elizabeth Payne)     chapter 2 of 19     (10.5%)
     Language Arts:
          Grammar - Language 3 (Abeka gr 3)     lesson 133 of 163     (81.6%)
          Comprehension - Worlds Of Wonder (Abeka gr 3)     lesson 14 of 46     (30.4%)
          Penmanship - Cursive 3 (Abeka gr 3)     lesson 140 of 175     (80.0%)
          Ind Reading - Fire Eternal (Chris D'Lacey)     chapter 32 of 34     (94.1%)
          Ind Reading - Eclipse (Stephenie Meyer)     page 278 of 629     (44.2%)
          Classic Lit - Outdoor Girls In Florida (Laura Lee Hope)     chapter 6 of 25     (24.0%)
          Classic Lit - Wizard Of Oz Lyman Frank Baum)     chapter 6 of 24     (25.0%)
          Free Reading - Glory Of Unicorns (Bruce Coville)     page 198 of 198     (100%)
          Free Reading - Wishbone Unleashed In Space (Alexander Steele)     page 252 of 252     (100%)
     Health:
          Textbook - Your Health (Harcourt gr 3)     lesson 26 of 85     (30.6%)
     Foreign Language:
          Latin - Minimus (Cambridge)     lesson 4 of 27     (14.8%)

Completed Curriculum For The 2011-2012 School Year (2nd Grade):
     Science:
          Reading - First Book Of Bees (Albert Tibbets)
          Reading - Polar Bears (Susan Canizares)
          Reading - Rain Forest (Jinny Johnson)
          Reading - True Story Of Corky The Blind Seal (Georgeanne Irvine)
          Reading - To Be A Chimpanzee (Chris Martin)
          Reading - Horses (Harold Roth)
          Reading - Rattlesnakes (ZooBooks)
          Reading - Otter On His Own (Doe Boyle)
          Reading - Day Of The Dinosaur (Stan Berenstain)
          Reading - Kittens And Cats (Intercontinental Books)
          Reading - Creature Questions (Chris Kratt)
          Reading - Bravest Dog Ever (Natalie Standiford)
          Reading - Wild Cats (Diane Muldrow)
          Reading - Where Do Birds Live (Betsey Chessen)
          Reading - Look To The North (Jean Craighead George)
          Reading - Big Dinosaurs (Michael Berenstain)
          Reading - All Kinds Of Animals (Merrigold Press)
          Reading - Ancient Forest (Guy J Spencer)
          Reading - Animals (A+)
          Reading - Penguins And Other Polar Animals (Dalmatian Press)
          Reading - Discovering Australian Wildlife (Steve Parish)
          Reading - First Book Of Bugs (Margaret Williamson)
     Math:
     History:
          Textbook - Spectrum Geography Grade 3 (McGraw Hill gr 3)
          Reading - Stories Of American Life And Adventure (Edward Eggleston)
          Reading - First Dog (Jan Brett)
          Reading - Orient (Tom McMahon)
          Reading - Story Of Jumping Mouse (John Steptoe)
          Reading - U S Mail (Elaine A Kule)
          Reading - Why The Sun And The Moon Live In The Sky (Elphinstone Dayrell)
          Reading - Finding The Titanic (Robert D Ballard)
          Reading - Stories From Old Russia (Edward W Dolch)
     Language Arts:
          Comprehension - Silly Things Happen (Houghton Mifflin gr 3)
          Comprehension - Foot Prints (Abeka gr 3)
          Independent Reading - Fire Star (Chris D'Lacey)
          Independent Reading - New Moon (Stephenie Meyer)
          Classic Literature - Outdoor Girls Of Deepdale (Laura Lee Hope)
          Classic Literature - Outdoor Girls In A Motor Car (Laura Lee Hope)
          Classic Literature - Outdoor Girls In A Winter Camp (Laura Lee Hope)
          Free Reading - Glory Of Unicorns (Bruce Coville)
          Free Reading - Wishbone Unleashed In Space (Alexander Steele)
     Health:
          Reading - It's Not The Stork (Robie H Harris)
     Foreign Language:

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Borderline Intervention Cheat Sheet (explicit content)

WARNING: This post contains the thought patterns of someone in an extremely depressed state due to Borderline Personality Disorder. It also contains personal observations on how I best cope with such a state. It is not intended to be a substitute for professional medical or psychology advice.

   When I first started writing on this blog, one of my main "objectives" was to be honest and open about my world, my life. And I feel that I have succeeded in doing that with certain aspects of it. However, when it comes to my personal thoughts and behaviors, I have failed miserably. Whether it has been from fear of being viewed "in that way" or simply trying to move past certain things, I have chosen not to write very much (if any) while in one of my not-so-upbeat states. And that was not my intention. My intention was to turn the world on end, be open and shockingly frank and disclose absolutely everything I could possibly have to hide (inadvertantly or otherwise). But, reality got in my way (as so often it does), and I was afraid of pushing the wrong buttons or saying the wrong thing to the wrong person. And here I am. Still being the same old me.
   Only here's the thing. I'm tired. Worn out. Exhausted. Sick of trying not to say how I really feel. And finding it still gets me absolutely nowhere in the end. I want to be open, to hope that maybe someone else can learn from my mistakes. Think that maybe someone else can be saved a little of the pain I deal with every single day. I'm here. I'm real. And I'm alive.
   I try sometimes to talk to my husband about the way I feel, the way I think, that way I am. But every time I try to bring it up, he counters with something along the lines of "sounds normal" or "what's so different about that" or "everyone does that"... I don't FEEL normal, I don't THINK of myself as being normal, and if this is how NORMAL people feel or think or act, God help us all. No one else will...
   Here's a quick glimpse into a "normal" day in my world: I get up, see Mutt off to work, and schedule ZoKo's assignments for the day. I get the girls up and remind them as to which one needs a shower. Odie gets up and takes a shower if needed. Breakfast is served. Bus waiting time. KiKi gets up. I take a shower if needed. I spend the next several hours helping ZoKo with school work or going into town and helping my mom with random things. B and Odie come home from school around the time Mutt gets home from work. Evening hours are spent reviewing school work, doing chores, and watching tv... Sounds perfectly normal, right?...
   Now for the parts you don't see... You don't see the thoughts in my head. You don't see how hard I have to try in order to focus on things and just make it through each day. You don't see how badly I want to run away and never look back. You don't see how much I regret being here and hate myself for the pain I'm causing to everyone else. You don't see that. You don't see what it's like to spend days at a time where it's hard for me to even drag myself out of bed and somehow manage to not do hateful things. You don't see how much I yell at myself in my own head for what an evil messed up person I know I am. And you sure as heck don't see how much my soul feels like it's burning in its own rage and falling into the black abyss of nothingness...
   Maybe my husband is right. Maybe all of that is normal... Maybe it is normal to constantly think about relieving everyone else of their duties to put up with you... Maybe it is perfectly normal to find yourself fantasizing about holding down the gas pedal and seeing how fast you can ram into a phone pole every time you're behind the wheel alone. Maybe that is normal... Maybe there's nothing wrong with feeling like you're the biggest piece of crap to ever walk this earth and God should have just saved everyone the misery and killed you before it became an issue. Maybe that's how it's supposed to be...
   Whatever part of me that still somehow believes in God (or at least my messed up interpretations of such a possibility) hopes like heck that that isn't normal. That people don't constantly walk around wanting to die. That not everyone wants to slit their wrists when they realize the kids really didn't like their mac cheese, or go drown themselves when their husband doesn't want another cookie (even though he's insisting he really did like the first one). God, how DOES he put up with me?
   I've tried to talk to my family, my friends, complete strangers. And they all say the same thing, it's normal to feel those things sometimes, helps remind you that you're alive. What kind of sense does that make? How is wanting to not be here supposed to make you feel better about being here? I don't know about you, but me feeling miserable and hating myself tends to just escalate and wind up with me hating myself even more...
   So, I'm being honest. These are a few of my problems, a few of my thoughts. Not all of them by any means, I'm not trying to upset anyone or be too harsh. But it's my reality. Here's the thing: While I haven't managed to stop these thoughts, urges, and impulses, I have managed to at least control some of them some times...

Consider this a "How To Survive Borderline Personality Disorder" cheat sheet or hot-key guide:

1: FEELING NEEDED helps a little bit. Having something that matters to you beyond belief, that you care about beyond anything else. And attempting to convince yourself that for some reason (no matter how selfish), that thing needs you. You and you alone, nothing or no one else could possibly suffice. Yeah, I don't believe it, and I know it's crap, and that everyone could do better with someone else (anyone else) in my place, but it still helps to tell yourself that (even when you don't believe it).

2: FEELING WANTED is even better. But that's hard (if not impossible) to accomplish. Little things make the biggest difference here. Sex isn't everything, but it sure is close. Being held and told you're loved and wanted. And yes, I argue this one constantly. Why the heck would anyone love me? It rates right up there with wondering why anyone would pretend to think I'm pretty or cute. I know it's crap. People aren't even good at lying. I know how ugly I am. And I know how unlovable I am. And while I will argue it infinately, I still want to hear it. I don't want to hear that you need me, that you can't live without me. I know that isn't true. Duh, you were alive before we met, right?... Wanting is something different. It means that you know you don't need me, you know you can do just fine without me, but you choose to have me around anyway. It means that you could be anywhere in the world right at this moment, and you choose to be next to me "just because". That's wanting. Or at least the emotional kind.

3: Back to SEX. Some people say it's a drug. They couldn't be more right. It is. Or at least it can be. It can be the best, most wonderful, most personal and unifying act in the world. It can also be the most dreadful, hated, painful, evil, despicible act in the world. All depends on your perspective. I've done it both ways (who hasn't?). And honestly, I love the IDEA of sex. I love flirting with men and teasing them and making them want me. I love feeling desirable, like a special new toy they can't wait to play with. There's nothing more fulfilling than that feeling. Nothing more enticing to me than knowing that someone wants you right then and there, even if it is strictly hormonal and physical. That's also the exact same reason that I hate it when I'm turned down. When the timing isn't right, or something else interferes, or sleep is a necessity. I feel discarded, abandoned, like a favorite teddy bear that's been thrown in the garbage for no reason at all. Not even replaced, just expired. Obsolete.

4: WRITING helps a lot. Depending on what you write. I write my poems. Dark poetry is what it gets labeled. I hate labels. Anyway, it's considered depressing, dark, grim, violent, and even obscurely gruesome or morbid at times. To me, it's not. I find it oddly refreshing. Invigorating. It releases me. Allows me to be who I feel like I truly am, even if just for a few seconds. I get a quick rush of freedom, the feeling of the wind against your face as you fall from the 20th floor. Or at least how I'd imagine it to be... I don't focus on it, I don't think about it. I just write. I feel like I'm burning or drowning or fading and I hear these thoughts flowing through my head, chanting like epics that can't be slowed. And I write them down. Not all of them. But enough of them. And it helps. For a little while.

5: MUSIC is the single most important tool I've found. Pick a song, crank it, and sing your heart out. Do not, however, listen to common reasoning and logic that would have you quietly listening to "feel good" light and sassy music. Heck no. You want something loud that rattles the windows. You want the neighbors to be able to hear ever single world. Clearly. So go for something that will actually make you feel better. Something that says how you feel at that exact moment. "Hurt" and "I Do Not Want This" by Nine Inch Nails are personal favorites. So are "Change" and "For You" by Staind. Then there's always "Disposable Teens" by Marilyn Manson. Go for the explicit crap that lets you feel better right now. Who cares what the rest of the world thinks, right?

6: Nice hot, steaming BATHS. The kind that turn you red. Work wonders. Candles instead of artificial lighting help. So does the previously mentioned loud music.

7: FORGETTING tomorrow. Focus on just making it through today. Tomorrow will be better. Yes, we all know it's a lie, but it is a good one. Just get through today and tomorrow will be here. You can worry about everything then...

8: If all of the above fail miserably, and you still hate yourself, feel like crap, and really want to curl up in a corner and FADE... Then do it. Grab a stuffed animal or a kid (assuming they're still talking to you). Hold them close, have a good cry, and stay there in a dark corner cuddling until you pass out. No matter how long you're out, when you wake up, it won't be NOW anymore. Time passes. Five minutes or five hours. It's the same thing...

   This is a very short post, compared to what I should be providing for input. And I don't know that any of it will matter to anyone else in the world. And maybe my husband is still right, maybe it is all perfectly normal. I'll let you decide. If anyone wants to talk, I'm here. If anyone doesn't want to talk, I'm still here. I promise that I'll post more about this part of my world. Not for you. Not for me. But for my family that has to deal with my crap every single day. And for those people that never could find what works for them, what helps them to deal with their own demons, no matter how real they may be. I love you all. Sweet dreams...

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Homeschooling - 11.5 Weeks In

   Okay, so I obviously didn't post this up yesterday like I was supposed to. I ended up spending yesterday dealing with two sick kids, a Mutt that was home from work, and my mom who spent the day at my house. So yeah. I might have been a little bitty bit busy. Just maybe...
   Anyway, this weekend Zoko finished up "The Outdoor Girls In A Winter Camp" (book 4) and started reading "The Outdoor Girls In Florida" (book 5). So far she likes the series. :) She also resumed reading "Wishbone Unleashed In Space" by Alexander Steele... We managed to cover one more Latin lesson, which we have rescheduled. We will now be spending a full three days on each lesson. Day one will be the lesson; day two will be writing the vocabulary in her personal Latin-English dictionary; and day three will be doing her own written translations of the entire lesson... So far that plan seems to be more suited than our previous attempts at covering everything in one day. Each step takes about 1-1.5 hours, which works well for her. Here it is, grade 2, progess report 10...

          - Total Hours completed as of September 17th, 2011 -
     Science     49.50
     Math     40.50
     History & Social Studies     41.75
     Language Arts & Reading     159.00
     Daily Review   1.50
     Health & Physical Education     54.50
     Art     22.75
     Home Economics     4.50
     Foreign Language (Latin)     4.00

          - Total Hours   378.00     out of     1,000 mandatory hours -
     Hours Left:     622.00     averaging     15.25/week  -or-  2.25/day

Curriculum used this week (percentage of current status towards completion):
     Science:
          Textbook - Discovery Works (Houghton Mifflin gr 3)     lesson 93 of 129     (72.1%)
          First Book Of Bugs (Margaret Williamson)     lesson 6 of 9     (66.7%)
     Math:
          Textbook - Arithmetic 3 (Abeka gr 3)     lesson 136 of 170     (80.0%)
          Reading - Brain Games For Kids (Publications International)     page 121 of 176     (68.8%)
     History:
          Textbook - History Of Our United States (Abeka gr 4)     lesson 18 of 73     (24.7%)
          Reading - Stories From Old Russia (Edward W Dolch)     chapter 16 of 21     (76.2%)
     Language Arts:
          Grammar - Language 3 (Abeka gr 3)     lesson 130 of 163     (79.8%)
          Comprehension - Worlds Of Wonder (Abeka gr 3)     lesson 12 of 46     (26.1%)
          Penmanship - Cursive 3 (Abeka gr 3)     lesson 137 of 175     (78.3%)
          Ind Reading - Fire Eternal (Chris D'Lacey)     chapter 29 of 34     (85.3%)
          Ind Reading - Eclipse (Stephenie Meyer)     page 228 of 629     (36.2%)
          Classic Lit - Outdoor Girls In A Winter Camp (Laura Lee Hope)     chapter 25 of 25     (100%)
          Classic Lit - Outdoor Girls In Florida (Laura Lee Hope)     chapter 1 of 25     (4.00%)
          Free Reading - Glory Of Unicorns (Bruce Coville)     page 182 of 198     (91.9%)
          Free Reading - Wishbone Unleashed In Space (Alexander Steele)     page 220 of 252     (87.3%)
     Health:
          Textbook - Your Health (Harcourt gr 3)     lesson 23 of 85     (27.1%)
     Foreign Language:
          Latin - Minimus (Cambridge)     lesson 4 of 27     (14.8%)

Completed Curriculum For The 2011-2012 School Year (2nd Grade):
     Science:
          Reading - First Book Of Bees (Albert Tibbets)
          Reading - Polar Bears (Susan Canizares)
          Reading - Rain Forest (Jinny Johnson)
          Reading - True Story Of Corky The Blind Seal (Georgeanne Irvine)
          Reading - To Be A Chimpanzee (Chris Martin)
          Reading - Horses (Harold Roth)
          Reading - Rattlesnakes (ZooBooks)
          Reading - Otter On His Own (Doe Boyle)
          Reading - Day Of The Dinosaur (Stan Berenstain)
          Reading - Kittens And Cats (Intercontinental Books)
          Reading - Creature Questions (Chris Kratt)
          Reading - Bravest Dog Ever (Natalie Standiford)
          Reading - Wild Cats (Diane Muldrow)
          Reading - Where Do Birds Live (Betsey Chessen)
          Reading - Look To The North (Jean Craighead George)
          Reading - Big Dinosaurs (Michael Berenstain)
          Reading - All Kinds Of Animals (Merrigold Press)
          Reading - Ancient Forest (Guy J Spencer)
          Reading - Animals (A+)
          Reading - Penguins And Other Polar Animals (Dalmatian Press)
          Reading - Discovering Australian Wildlife (Steve Parish)
     Math:
     History:
          Textbook - Spectrum Geography Grade 3 (McGraw Hill gr 3)
          Reading - Stories Of American Life And Adventure (Edward Eggleston)
          Reading - First Dog (Jan Brett)
          Reading - Orient (Tom McMahon)
          Reading - Story Of Jumping Mouse (John Steptoe)
          Reading - U S Mail (Elaine A Kule)
          Reading - Why The Sun And The Moon Live In The Sky     (Elphinstone Dayrell)
          Reading - Finding The Titanic (Robert D Ballard)
     Language Arts:
          Comprehension - Silly Things Happen (Houghton Mifflin gr 3)
          Comprehension - Foot Prints (Abeka gr 3)
          Independent Reading - Fire Star (Chris D'Lacey)
          Independent Reading - New Moon (Stephenie Meyer)
          Classic Literature - Outdoor Girls Of Deepdale (Laura Lee Hope)
          Classic Literature - Outdoor Girls In A Motor Car (Laura Lee Hope)
          Classic Literature - Outdoor Girls In A Winter Camp (Laura Lee Hope)
     Health:
          Reading - It's Not The Stork (Robie H Harris)
     Foreign Language: